Tomorrow is Remembrance Day and also the day we go to the Cemetery to say our final goodbyes to my Dad. I figured tomorrow would be a fitting day to say goodbye, since my Dad served in the military and the 11th was a day he respected. Like I have said before, I am still in shock but so thankful he is finally at peace with my Mom.
I also cannot help but feel like I am setting sail on a new journey. Life feels very different now and I cannot help but feel everything just a little more. That applies to the bad and to the good, I am trying to focus more on the good these days. I truly have so much to be thankful for, even though this past year has been full of trials. Lately, I have been making sure to enjoy each and every moment with my kids. I think they are the neatest little people and I want to spend every day making sure they know that.
Speaking of the little ones...They are both suffering from this flu that is making the rounds. Although Evan is on the mend, now little sister has it and next in line Mommy. Taylor is taking tamiflu and it tastes pretty bad. So after a dose of medicine, Evan ran in with a drink of water to wash it down with. Didn't ask for it, but he just wanted her to have it. Awww:) Tonight he nearly broke my heart, when I was putting the kids to bed Evan came in and said--when I have my last day here I will give you back your stamp collection. I said okay, wondering what he meant. After looking at his face it was clear he was about to burst into tears. I asked him what he meant and he started sobbing, that he didn't want to have to leave home. I told him that is not something he needs to even think about and tried to explain when that time came he may actually be excited to have his own home. That didn't cut it and I merely told him this is his home as long as he needs it to be and our home will always be his home. Now hopefully he doesn't think he will be living rent free for the rest of his days. I am wondering if they were discussing Remembrance Day today and about all the young men that left their homes to fight in the wars? I don't know. He asked if he would be living at home for the next thousand years and I suddenly remembered that I am talking to a six year old and their world doesn't always make sense to us grown-ups. He is such a sensitive little boy and his kind heart is certainly one of his greatest attributes.
Hard to believe that it is almost time to contemplate shopping for the wee ones. I really want to try and make this a year that we focus on more than just getting more and more and more. I am thinking I may buy a few toys and then also give the kids some "experience" gifts. Coupons to Science World, coupons to a movie,etc. Gifts that involve us getting out there as a family. I would also like this to be the year we do some charity work as a family. I have a few ideas and will share them with you if they work out. I realize that I am missing an important window with the kids. I so want them to grow up to care about more than just their own world and want them to feel a calling to give back.
Time for bed. I hope tomorrow you are able to find a moment to reflect. Take care.